How do I describe
This gaping wound
Sticky and wet
With the acrid tears
I shed tonight
Those wounds cut deep
By your sharp words
So hapazardly thrown
Do I look like I'm running away
Do I look like I'm smart enough to escape?
Cause I'm not.
I learned so long ago
There is no escape
Not from words that push and crawl
Like hounds let loose on the chase
Scratching and pawing
At my soul
Till finally
With their razor edged teeth
THey bite
And rip open the hole
I'd tried so desperately to patch
But your apologies are the weakest of glues
And your words do more damage
Than the strongest of pounding fists
So here I stand
Letting no tears mingle with this newly shed blood
Quietly standing guard against my own soul
Letting myself feel nothing
Not the warmth of the autumn night
Not the smooth silk of my bra against my skin
Not even the silent tears that slip down my cheek
I feel nothign
So that I will not feel your bodiless blows
I stand here as a statue
Hiding in plain sight
So how do I describe
This feeling of pain
So deep that I am reduced
To nothing
How do I describe
My life as this monument
To a girl that once lived
A life full of dreams
But to a girl that now stands here
Hollow